Archive for April, 2012

Have you ever woken up with just an overwhelming down feeling. You can’t quite pinpoint where this feeling is coming from, but just a dark gray cloud hanging over you. This is where I am this morning. Why? I DON’T KNOW WHY!!! (I yell at myself) ūüė¶

It could be the dark gray rainy day outside, with a yard that desperately needs clean up.¬† It could be the three loads of laundry on the dining room table that need folding and putting away.¬† Maybe it’s my foot that is now finally free of the boot!! But hurts and is swollen today.¬† Maybe I thought at this time I would get out of the boot and take a nice little 2 mile run.¬† I could be realizing that it will be a longer road back to walking then running than what I had anticipated.

It seems every direction I look this morning there is clutter – my house, my mind, outside – inside, the clutter of thoughts about my foot and running, the clutter of thoughts about end of the year projects the boys are doing for school, clutter of all I need to do, should do, haven’t done, don’t want to do. I guess one could call this discontentment.¬† ūüė¶

This verse popped into my mind this morning in¬†the midst of my¬†grumblings –

“I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow‚ÄĒnot even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below‚ÄĒindeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:38-39 NLT)

Wow – perspective change.¬† I just love how God, in His faithfulness, will not leave us alone with our thoughts for too long!! Mine have been a really scary place this week.¬† But, this is a new moment and I have been overwhelmingly reminded that no matter where I am, how I’m feeling, cluttered life or not, God loves me!!! How freeing is that?!!


So . . . two of the same shoes today!! For that I am thankful!!! The rest will come Рthe walking, the running, the bicycling . . . But, for today, I am thankful Рmostly that I am loved by the King of kings and Lord of lords.

I’m also really excited for Emily.¬† She will be running her (our) half marathon this weekend!! She will rock it!!! ūüôā


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It’s Saturday. It’s beautiful weather!! Nice and warm¬†just like I love¬†it.

I’m home alone, which is a nice quiet moment in life for me.

I actually put my workout clothes on today. ¬†I’m getting antsy to¬†workout.¬† I’m pretty sure this beautiful day has something do to with me just wanting to get outside and run . . . run . . . run . . . but, still in this lovely cam boot. ūüė¶

I¬†have learned to be creative in my workouts these past¬†five¬†and a half weeks.¬†¬†My pushup challenge is going ok.¬† I’m¬†not as strong as I would like to be, but it is¬†such a great¬†whole body exercise – core,¬†arms, shoulders, back, abs, legs.¬† I do them in¬†six sets with slowly increasing reps.¬† My goal is to do 100¬†consecutive pushups.¬† Yikes!! I¬†think¬†I can . . . I think I can . . . I think I can . . .¬† I¬†am choosing to persevere and get it done.¬† I’m not going to worry about how long that might be, taking some pressure off of me, but just working toward the goal.

I am missing my step workouts, lower body weight lifting, and most definitely¬†running!! I’m so excited . . . the boot comes off next week and I will be able to wear matching shoes.¬† How cool is that!! ūüôā

When I first broke a bone in my foot, it seemed like it was a ‘forever’ time before I would be able to walk, then run.¬† Today, looking back, I’m surprised at how fast the time seems to have gone and how, through being creative, I’ve been able to still workout.¬† My perspective has changed!!

I wish I would learn to just rest in the circumstances of¬† my life that seem to really ruffle my feathers, such as a broken foot, where my plans are side-swiped – my first half marathon on April 28th that won’t be.¬† At first, I was so desperate to find a way to still run the race with my daughter, Emily.¬† I would add up how long I would be in the boot,¬† how long I would be walking, then running, how fast I would be able to run, would I be able to get my mileage back up to be able to race it, maybe I’ll just walk it since it is both a walking and running race.¬† I probably spent the first two weeks calculating and recalculating desperate to run this race and not have my plans change.¬† I had to face reality – my boot comes off three days before the race!! Really, Patty, really . . . give it up!!

Once I was able to let go of the race (which I just found out this week they will transfer my payment to next years run ūüôā ), I was able to rest my poor mind.¬† I was able to get excited for Emily running it and encourage her in her training.¬† I was able to let go of my plan and rest in God’s plan and be content.

Now, looking back, remember persepective – what a different one I have now.¬† Looking back it doesn’t seem that long.¬†¬†My upper body has gotten stronger doing a workout I probably wouldn’t have done while running.¬† I can’t say I have a love for pushups, but I have a love for getting stronger!! I have had the time to start a blog and read many blogs on running and I am encouraged.¬† I have new half marathons and possibly a marathon planned in the future – exciting, but in the midst trying to keep my focus on the One who knows it all – a Great God!! ūüôā

Life goes on . . . God can be trusted in ALL things and I am thankful.

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As I look out the window this morning watching the snow come down, I am at peace. Yes, the thought of having to get out in it doesn’t thrill me, but there is something so quiet, so calm, so simple, so beautiful in watching my world turn to white, a nice clean covering of trees, of dirt/mud road, dead lawn – everything looks so serene.¬† I am once again reminded of all that I am thankful for ‚Ķ

 РA Great God

– A Saviour Who loves me so much that He gave His life for my life

– My husband, Mike, who is my bestest friend

РMy eight children (includes two amazing son-in-laws)

– Family . . .

– My mom, who suffers with Alzheimer’s, who gave so much for her children

– My sisters and brother, we may not see eye-to-eye all the time, but we are family!!!

РMy many, many dear friends

– My church, Westside, so dear to me

– My home

– My car

– Employment – God you have been so faithful

– Health and Strength

– That I’m a runner – just resting for a moment ūüôā

– My cup of coffee

– All the different seasons in my life – the good, the bad, and the ugly – God uses them all, nothing wasted!!

– That God never changes

– That God is always present – He never leaves me or forsakes me

Moments like this are so refreshing and give me such hope for today, tomorrow, and the next.

So . . . my daffodils are back to this . . .

But, there is hope of this . . .

Now I must step away and deal with the reality of getting to town in this ‘lovely’ snow!! ūüôā But, I do so with an overflowing thankful heart!!!


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Yep Рthese are the shoes I wear these days Рonly one!!!  All lined up for me within easy reach!!

Today is an exciting day for me!! It is my last day on crutches!! Now, that is something to celebrate!! It has been a VERY LONG four weeks of crutching and no running.  My leg muscles may have atrophied during this time, but my upper body has definitely had its workout and is tired.  One thing new are calluses, which have formed in the palms of my hands. My hands have had to hold my weight up, while my right foot took a break (literally :)). The calluses grew slowly as I hobbled along and now I have a nice thick pad on my palms.

Definition of a Callus:

“A callus¬†(or callosity) is a toughened area of skin which has become relatively thick and hard in response to repeated friction, pressure, or other irritation.”

I know we all have calluses¬†on our fingers from holding our pencils or pens as we write.¬† Musicians get calluses¬†on their fingers from playing their instruments.¬† Runners get calluses on their feet.¬†¬† These extra-tough patches of skin are really quite useful‚Äďone might even say handy‚Äďbecause they act like a kind of natural armor, protecting areas of skin that get an unusual amount of wear and tear – such as my palms, at the moment. ūüôā

I am reminded of the verse in James:

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” James 1:2-4

Definition of  a trial:

¬†“A test of someone’s strength, patience, or faith; hardship.”

As friction and pressure on my skin have produced calluses; trials, which are also a form of¬†friction and pressure¬†have/are/will produce¬†a steadfastness –¬†a¬†being firmly fixed in place –¬†in my walk with God.¬†¬†Could one say, a ‘spiritual‘ callus, so to speak –¬† is built and formed by different tests and also¬†acts like a kind of¬†spiritual armor,¬†growing¬†our faith, perfecting us, completing us – that we would lack nothing!!¬†¬†Calluses of all kinds may hurt in the building process, but bring strength and perfection in the end.

I love how nature – physical world –¬†teaches us and¬†reminds us of God¬†– spiritual world –¬†with wonderful object lessons.

While using crutches, I have gotten stronger¬† in my upper body and in my hands.¬† I have also been forced to slow down in this particular trial – to rest in God’s timing and His healing, to depend on others (very difficult for me), to ask for help, and to find innovative ways of doing daily life.¬† ūüôā

I got this bracelet soon after my little mishap – I love everything about it!!! ūüôā

I’m still working on my 100 consecutive push up goal.¬† It has been a bit slower than¬†I had hoped due to the constant use of my upper body crutching around.

Emily will be running the half marathon in a few weeks for both of us and I will be there to cheer her on with, hopefully, regular shoes – 2 of them –¬†and no cam boot.¬† ūüôā

I am really looking forward to the day I can run again and sign up for another half marathon or maybe, just maybe, a marathon.  But for now, I am happy that I will be crutchless tomorrow!!!

God is always good and God is always faithful!!!!

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The weather has been very Jekyll and Hyde these past few weeks. Seriously, one day we are in full on spring weather and the next day we have inches of snow. I am thankful for the much needed rain and snow, much easier said since I am unable to run!! ūüôā

Spring Weather

back to Winter


A miracle – they survived the storm!!

As I was walking through the living room РI will rephrase that, as I was crutching through the living room, I noticed something yellow coming out beyond the tree. Yes, could it be, yes it is Рmy daffodils have popped up again, strong, full of life and color, just as if nothing had happened to them!!! It is amazing to me that they survived being bent, weighed down, covered up to pop right back just as strong and maybe even stronger.

This was such a beautiful picture to me of our lives and the circumstances that are allowed to touch our lives.  They can weigh us down, overwhelm us, and smother us, but if we can see them as just a moment, just a season in the midst of our lives, and allow them to draw us closer to God and help us to grow into the person God has for us, then we can find peace, and joy and find that our walk with God is that much stronger!!

As the flowers are His creation,  so are we.  As He revived the daffodils and made them again lovely, beautiful, and stronger, so does He do this for, us, His children.

Matthew 10:29-31 says: “. . . but not a single sparrow can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it.¬† And the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are more valuable to God then a whole flock of sparrows.”

I’m telling you, that gives me hope, that makes me smile, just as I smiled when I saw my daffodils – my hope of spring – return!! That reminds me that, yes, I may be ‘gimpy’ at the moment and not able to do what I want to do and be in control of what I want to be in control of, but God has it covered, He always did, ¬†in the midst of this circumstance with my foot.¬† He works my circumstances to my benefit and ¬†makes all things new!!!

May you be blessed in this season of your life!!! Happy Easter!!!

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